I wake up this morning, intending to get up and study God’s Word. But, it’s my day off, so I sleep in. I get up out of bed and attempt to start helping out with odd jobs from mom and school for the boys. But, it’s my day off, so I don’t have a good attitude and my work is shoddy at best. I finish up family projects and decide to work some on my own. But, it’s my day off, so I do just enough to get by.
I hate my days off from my job. My job is to travel the US singing and ministering to people, and days off are generally unproductive at best, if not an utter waste of time and energy. I don’t like day’s where I don’t have to work if I don’t want to, because, let’s face it, no one wants to work if they don’t have to. But, I love working, being busy, being flooded even with so much work I have no time for anything else. I’m a fan of being constantly occupied with and by something. Dead time is simply, dead time to me. So, I’m not a fan of off days.
Every day is approached with some manner of mindset. We have expectations, fears, and excitement about each new day without fail. When we approach a given day with a certain mindset, that becomes our attitude for the entire day. If we start a work day with a mind to work, we will work, we will want to work, and we will be ready for whatever work gets thrown upon us. However, if we aproach a work day with a mind to be lazy, we will avoid work, do whatever it takes to get out of work, and have a bad attitude about the work we have to do.
Sometimes the day determines the mindset, and other times the mindset determines the day. For example: on days when I know we are singing, when we will be ministering, I recognise that as the them e of the day and so I minister all day long with my actions, my words, and my attitude. The theme of that day dictates my mindset. But, if I am predisposed to be impossible to please, regardless of the theme of the day, I will disrupt it and wreck it for everyone with which I come in contact.
These days off can and should be the most productive days of my week. But, somehow they never are. The reason is that I never approach them with the proper mindset, I never come at them willing to work and get things done. Why? Because it’s my day off! I already have an idea in my mind of how the day should go simply because of its name. But, that’s a problem with me and my motivation. If I had started this day right, I wouldn’t be writing this now and would’ve gotten many things accomplished rather than the miniscule amount of work I actually did accomplish today.
This is a painful reminder for me to be more motivated, to approach each day with the proper mindset, and to find a job. Really. If I only had more things to do I wouldn’t complain about never getting anything done. I work when I’m supposed to, when I’m expected to, when I need to, and on occasion when I simply don’t want to do anything else. It’s time I living my days motivated so as not to waste one precious second of my time here on this planet.
As always, thanks for reading.
—the anoynmous novelist